t̤abʿa hai mushtāq-e lażżat'hā-e ḥasrat
kyā karūñ
ārzū se hai shikast-e ārzū mat̤lab mujhe
1) the temperament is ardent for/from the pleasures of
grief/longing-- what can I do?
2) 'desire/longing' means/intends 'the breaking/deficiency of desire/longing', to me
lażżat : 'Pleasure, delight, enjoyment; sweetness, deliciousness; taste, flavour, relish, savour; —an aphrodisiac; an amorous philter'. (Platts p.955)
ḥasrat : 'Grief, regret, intense grief or sorrow; --longing, desire'. (Platts p.477)
ārzū : 'Wish, desire, longing, eagerness; hope; trust; expectation; intention, purpose, object, design. inclination, affection, love'. (Platts p.40)
shikast : 'Breaking, breakage, fracture; a breach; defeat, rout; deficiency, loss, damage'. (Platts p.730)
mat̤lab : 'A question, demand, request, petition; proposition; wish, desire; object, intention, aim, purpose, pursuit, motive'. (Platts p. 1044)
He says, 'My temperament is ardent for longing and vain longing. That is, through longing and vain longing I obtain the pleasure of life. I hope only with this intention: that it would be broken, and I would obtain the pleasure of vain longing to my heart's content.' (286)
I'm under duress. My temperament is ardent for the pleasure of failure. I don't feel longing so that it would be fulfilled, but rather so that it would not be fulfilled, and the pleasure of deprivation would be vouchsafed to me. (403)
SETS == CATCH-22; DEFINITION
Here's a classic example of the clever use of multivalent vocabulary: ḥasrat means 'grief', or 'longing', or 'desire', while ārzū means 'desire', or 'longing', or 'hope', or 'expectation'; shikast means either 'breaking' or 'deficiency' (see the definitions above). So the crucial second line can be read in at least the following ways
=Through longing/hope/purpose, the speaker's goal is the defeat of longing/hope/purpose (that is, the time when he realizes that he'll never get what he longs/hopes/seeks for).
=By 'longing' the speaker really means 'the defeat of longing', since only by longing and then having that longing prove vain can he achieve the feeling of defeated, lost, longing that he craves: thus he 'longs' for the defeat of longing.
=By 'longing' the speaker really means 'the deficiency of longing', because there's never enough longing to suit him, and so he always 'longs' for more.
=What the speaker really seeks are the pleasures of grief/longing [ḥasrat], so as far as 'desire/longing' [ārzū] goes, his only wish is that it would be proved vain, so as to increase his grief/longing.
The result of such nuktah-chīnī and casuistry is a vexatious kind of ambiguity. Even between the two words for 'longing' (see the definitions above), should we take ḥasrat and ārzū to refer to the same basic feeling, or to two subtly different kinds of longing (with the former more despairing, the latter more active)?
The verse refuses to give us much help with such problems: it even, in the second line, cultivates an aphoristic resonance. It also offers itself as a paradox: if 'longing' is equated with 'the defeat of longing', isn't that like a 'catch-22' situation, or a snake swallowing its own tail? And of course, the 'to me' reminds us that the speaker could be wrong in his judgments-- his perceptions could be skewed by his own warped or even crazed emotional life.
After a while the hovering cloud of possibilities becomes both confusing and irritating. The parsing
of 'longing' becomes like running around and around on a wheel while batting
away a swarm of gnats. And the real source of vexation is that there doesn't
seem to be anything behind it all, anything that makes the verse worth struggling
with. It feels like cheap (metaphysical) thrills on the poet's part.
Nazm:
Here, he has used ḥasrat to mean hopelessness and vain longing. He says, 'I find so much pleasure in hopelessness and vain longing, that I hope that hope would be cut off, and I would have the pleasure of vain longing'. In this verse mat̤lūb in place of mat̤lab is the idiom; both these words are used in colloquial Urdu.... In short, the refrain doesn't accept that connection. It ought to have been ārzū se hai shikast-e ārzū mat̤lab mirā . Atish too has said something similar:
dahan-e zaḳhm-kushtagān se hai
mere qātil ko marḥabā mat̤lab
[through the mouths of the wound-slain ones
to my murderer, congratulation is meant/intended] (229)
== Nazm page 228; Nazm page 229